FUCKED UP

he was considered as one of musical geniuses ... at least i'm giving him that fucking recognition.

he claimed he never wanted to be famous in some of the interviews and how he hated fame. an antithesis to his own childhood ambition of making it big and becoming a well known figure. his contradictions are abound. most probably becoz he was stoned during those interviews. perhaps he was schizophrenic.

couldn't understand most of his lyrics. not a die hard fan and couldn;t be bothered to learn word for word for all his songs. just fucking hooked to the music. nothing else matters. the angst, the parody, the fucked up singing...... that was the attraction and affection, nothing more than that.

some say, geniuses die young. in his case, he blew up his own fucked up life... literally. what a fucking way to die....

i had a friend who was in grief for weeks. what the fuck? this ass hole took his own life for he no longer cared to live but you my friend, on the other hand wanted to live long. and we have survived this far. hahahaha ......

there was once i had to listen to nevermind, the album, for 4 fucking hours non stop. it must be the best album i have listened to in my entire life. to add more drama to it, we were chasing an amoi in her mitsubishi charade from kowloon all the way to kajang via the old road. i really thought and was damned sure, i was going to die that night in that proton saga.

fuck you tomoe!!!!!